the future...

there seems to be this rise and fall in understanding the meaning of the present in regards to the future...many days pass and i think i know what is going on- but in all actuality, i don't...i try to narrow down my desires and gifts only to be plagued with the notion of cluelessness...

i want to do everything...which poses a problem...everything meaning: preaching, teaching, counseling, missions, advocacy, farming, promoting humanity and creation...is there a vocational call that includes all of the aforementioned?

silly isn't it...this is what happens on days such as today...i wonder...way too much...