insight...

i took this test the other day, a what type of movie would you be test- ludicrous i know- and it came out that i was a nihilist...i was a bit dubious until tonight...

i found myself thinking that the machine of the world is good at grinding up the hope i hold dear...i stand, as tonight, and wonder why it must be this way? are the systems in place really that bad? i think so, but i do not know what little ole' me can do...this is a true confession...for those who walk with no anxiety over this, i adore you...

i study things everyday which foster hope...but i am finding it hard to juxtaposition the machine with change...this bothers me...

maybe i should find comfort in the skippage freedom...maybe i should go to sno-beach tomorrow and forget the ugly machine...

i do, by the way, get to keep bradley and floyd for the rest of this week...see, my hope has been renewed...