i need to wash my mouth out with soap

loved that trick as a kid...cuss words, mean words, down right ugly words...like shut up or your momma... i tell you i am taking a beating this week in the realization that my tongue is ugly, ugly...

how did i get here? how do any of us? the road to uglydom isn't very far...in fact, it's only a few paces in a certain direction...the scariest part is that there are no road signs telling you what is ahead...i stepped off the proverbial cliff yesterday...the thing is- you don't die...instead you stand there as a revelation of your awful uglydom overwhelms you...i could not breathe yesterday...

i think it is important who you encounter proverbial cliff revelation with...it just so happened that the witness to my travels in uglydom was exteremely benevolent...he was so benevolent that i have basically landed in some other kingdom...possibly the kingdom of God...