cupcake of christ - baked for you...

i have no idea if you have ever stayed after communion and eaten the "left over" bread and wine - either by yourself or with others...i often reflect theologically about the "left over" bit...classically, we don't really believe in a "holiness" in the regular old bread and wine...this is why we have to utter some profound bit of words that aren't necessarily magic - but try to make us understand that the presence of christ is really there - through the spirit...i personally think this is a load of crap...if we don't get that christ is really present absent of words, then we have a whole other slew of problems we should be dealing with...like our lack of understanding "word"...

that was a crappy foreword to what i really want to talk about...i get frustrated sometimes that there are actually leftovers of bread and wine...in the world we live in, people should be ripping off huge chunks of bread and gulping down the wine with great shouts of acclamation "praise be to god" as cheeks are still full of bread and one drip of wine is trailing the left side of the mouth...

instead, there are half loaves of bread still there when it is all said and done with a large majority of wine still waiting to be drunk...this bothers me...and i am still trying to figure it out...

tonight joseph took me to the cupcake trailer...it was a little silver trailer - the kind that lines recreational parks all across america...they even had lights strung up all around it - strong white lights that defined the trailer with a unique color...there was even a small stand up menu with select cupcakes listed - chocolate with vanilla, vanilla with chocolate, etc...the real kicker is that they have cream cheese icing...seriously - it took me about two hours to get ready to eat it...

i had to let my dinner settle away and there had to be a little bit of time to reflect on it - prepare myself for this luscious, deep, dense, filling piece of cake...as i licked the cream cheese icing off the paper, my mind began to race at my craving tonight compared with the craving of eucharist this morning...both were not holy elements by any means...just ordinary things...but my desire to eat the cupcake trailer cupcake was more passionate than my desire to eat and drink of the body of christ...

it's hard to imagine "cupcake of christ - baked for you"....but i wonder if i would think about eucharist more? desire it more - long for it more...get it - more...i know, the bitterness is a part of the whole deal...it seems a bit paradoxical to drink the cup of suffering through a cupcake and possible chalice of milk...

but i sense that is what is going on lately...the willingness to drink the cup of suffering is only attempted if lured through some type of cupcake trailer...bright lights and small stand up menus...you order your own suffering according to your ability to handle it...

what is funny is that there would be no left over cupcake jesus...the bitterness of bread and wine is left to whoever decides to dive in later on...their only ordinary - right? i sort of have a hunch that if we truly drank the cup of suffering, we would tear off the biggest piece of bread and take a huge gulp of that bitter wine because of the nourishment and sustenance we know the real christ can and has promised to give through it all...no wonder we leave it there...we don't want it...we want the trailer with bright lights...

i feel certain i have not flushed this out yet entirely...but it's a good start...and for the record, the cupcake trailer makes some damn good cupcakes...