should i?

one of the detriments to being on vacation is that you find yourself satisfied with sitting in front of the american beast that sinks its claws into your flesh- the television...

over the last few days, i have spent too much time watching the thorn birds and wishing that meggie and ralph would just live and love while the commerical for eHarmony.com filtered in about every 13 minutes...

which made me think, is it possible that a computer match could actually put me with someone that i could actually live the rest of my life with? seriously? or is it that i am too damn proud to even deign to think a freakin computer match could control my destiny?

i admit- i have several strikes against me when it comes to dating...1) seminary student (which often gets followed with the "are you going to be a nun?" question...2) possible mission field call (that cuts the dating population to 2- and they are probably married already)...

the outlook is bleak my friends...so instead of waiting on the cosmos to spin and woo me as it may, i have beaten my pride down (with a wet noodle) far enough to seriously consider this...what do you think?

so i did learn something...

the only thing i thought i walked away with from church history was
"check walker"...today, i would have given my left arm to have had walker in my hand...

for kicks i like to watch the prominent local baptist preacher...as he speaks, it is the only time in my life that i talk to the television with vigor- as if he could hear my bellowing through the screen...today's 'sermon' was on the inadequacies of dan brown's novel- you know what....

as he said the word "exactly"- referring to the dates the new testament would have been written- the only red flag voice going off in my head was ellen saying: "you cannot use the word 'exactly' when referring to history, monica..." thus, my vocalization started to the television, plus a few choice words inbetween the cooth words as well...

he quoted several times that all the books of the new testament were written before 60 ad (note the ignoring of common era language)...i felt the voices of erhman and monya regarding "alleged" dates...what was it that made me think i was right? which made me start to ponder authority...

we all have an idea of what it is, but seriously, who was his authority in claiming the pre 60 ad dates? i only rant on this for a few reasons: 1) he claims that the gnostic gospels were not considered in the canon due to their late writings...oh, and because they were full of shit...(paraphrase mine)...2) because of this lateness, they are completely inacurate...

hmmm...let's see...basically, it all boils down to who you claim as your authority...if this is so, then what does this mean? reformed people, like you and me, claim scripture to be our authority...but even in this, there are different authorities on the authority...and then on top of that, add your ability to be authoritative and then you have at least three major authorities duking it out...and we know that the winners write history...

he spoke in other areas of academia- theology, history (councils)...i found myself hearing his authority to be different than what i have been schooled in this year...so who's right? on a side note, he did teach me today that the phrase "one iota of difference" came from the nicea council differentiating between homi/homo ousious...this is the only time i did not talk back to the screen...

so, without going off any more, i wanted the world to know that my first year of education has enabled me with some skills...like bashing baptist pastors and actually being able to realize that claimed authority is relevant...which makes me a little nervous...maybe i'll learn more about that this year...

ps- i think i am headed toward the mission field...am working on mission internship for school year of 07-08...this, my friends, has brought me to a place of freedom and peace...will continue to discern, but i am so thankful for the chance to be able to check it out...and if it fits, i'll finish up in school and be out by 09...i think having kids is out of the picture...you never know...

climbing profile...

i made it home (what used to be home but is still comfortable) tonight- sans top on jeep the entire trip...can we say today was magnific? perfect...perfect...perfect...until the engine light came on and i was in the middle of nowhere with rising blood pressure...needless to say, i have sweet skills when it comes to rolling into a town, popping the hood and putting coolant into the jeep...the light never went off, but i made it anyway...

i would like to point out that my profile envy has lessened a bit- but today, i hit over the 400 mark...i'm not sure exactly what that makes you- somewhere around loser i'm sure-

for fun, i am getting up at 5:30 to go and take a shift at the buck...can you believe that mindless coffee making and chatting it up with loads of people is how i will spend these next few weeks?

may tomorrow be a day of blessedness...(during graduation today i had this fantastic vision of all of us hooded and inflicting our academia on people...it was borderline nightmare...)

ps- go to dees blog and check out the flaming dr. peppers...thanks chris...

sleep pattern confused

over the course of this last week, i only slept three of the five nights...i would take a few hours here and there during the day, when i could, and then hit the books hard at night...

i am wondering the strange effects this will have on my brain...

believe it or not, lebowski fest was borderline lame...the sage was detained by being honorous, the movie was having 'techincal difficulties' which sucked...BUT, i had my first flaming doctor pepper shot...dees has the pic...and i spent at least 45 minutes with the hiccups...this is when i know the line has been crossed...

so in order to orient myself, i must get up...

hope the weekend is pleasant for all living...and dead...i'm done!!!!!

so i underestimated...

8:22 am and it's all finito- fine- finished- signed sealed and soon to be delivered...i was a few hours off, but done nonetheless...

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!
(cue running man dance)

vices at their best...

i would like to take this time and thank those who have made this week possible...

many a wise thought and grand vision was made possible in part to the great 'think stick'...american spirits are indeed one of the great loves of my life and fuel me in the times i tend to take in mooded reflection on this grand world...eight minutes of solitude can cure many a delimma...

also, stimulation from the java arena has made this week do-able...without contributions from the proletarian drip company, aka jensen's coffee maker, i would have never comprised such great work...

also, thanks to the stimulation of florescent lighting, and uncomfortable seating made possible by our haven of study, aka stotts hall, i am on the home stretch of making declarations about preaching that will astound the world...

lebowski fest tonight...many a humble thanks to the sage for accomodating me with a hook up ticket...this looks to be the celebration that will be in honor of finishing the prolegomena of our seminary trek, and also a big, fat party to celebrate the goddess of love in her annual matriculation in age...happy birthday sweetheart...

it's 3am and i am not lonely...i have a few straggling sidekicks who are competing with the clock to accomplish the feat of conclusion...time might be on our side...i estimate that 8 minutes of think stick time twice an hour might push me to finish around 6 am...damn...this is good...

my brain, over-easy style

from ignatius to plato, joseph to mary, the parable of the sower in which women are the good soil...

from the human problem and the models of judicial/participation models and apocalyptic realms -this business is harshing my gig...

from the superior christ to the homily of hebrews, to the birth line of jesus to the gnostics of light -who jesus really is, paps, to me is apparently serious business...

the deabsolutized world feels good at the moment, but as the hours progress, i feel there will be an absolutizing of my grade...

power of the mind to all in these wee hours...let us finish triumphantly...even though it might feel as if it is just somehow...

kyrie with a twist

jlord have mercy
stubbs have mercy
jlord have mercy

shouldn't we know what they look like?

"these feelings of unpreparedness...lean into your God-Consciousness fully...your experience should tell you that you are not the first person to ever walk into a theology final with no clue...hell, how do you think Tillich ever came up with his load of theology? he just started writing in one of the finals and poof, out came all of his "root" words to his theology...besides, we all know what he was doing the night before...he he"



"don't you get it? the only reason you are taking this final is because of the incarnation...this has so affected you that your entire being is within this event...this is the starting point for all of you...practice the freedom this gives and understand this is where the confidence of your place here makes sense...God is God...write about that..."



"all of this mamby pamby bit...you must work out this faith, my friends...we would all agree that God is with us, but get your butt out of bed and study!! if you do not know the mind of each one of us, then it makes it more difficult to defend your place...haha! use your mind and work toward the completion of this time we have had together...perfection is worth working for..."



"well...it's true, what that ignorant fool schleimy said...BUT, it has continued to make so much sense...i did not know what was being formed that day, but it has continued to form itself into a reasonable theology...these polarities are true definitions of our existence...claim your angst and yet claim the new being as well...pull a little dialectical delight from our friend barthy...remember, it's just one day out of your life...watch i heart huckabee tonight...it will help you..."


i should be studying...

addendum...

i just realized that we must take into consideration the aforementioned bump disguised as 'hump'...91/2 mph is a considerable speed...

recommended speed...

well, this is the recommended speed for this week...the speed bump is coming on monday...proceed slowly and know that going any faster than this could hurt you...

i was driving home and i saw a sign that says "no center stripe 45 mph" and then 4 ft later, a texas speed limit sign with the usual post of 70 mph...i felt as if the sign meant that if i saw no center stripe, then slow to 45 mph, BUT if not, then the regular speed was okay...

consider this- if there is no center stripe for only 15 ft, is this long enough to even be able to slow down to 45 mph? math is not my forte, but from experience, i know that it is not possible...so my question would be, "did i break the law?" it would be like crossing the street and using the walk/don't walk sign as a signal to either walk or not even if it is in the middle of the street...like rainman...

hope all goes well this week!! so much to do, so little time...hurry up!! i am living for may 19th...

dumb me...

you know when you "think" that you have taken care of things and then the reality of your false thinking sets in- it's disturbing...i came home for a few days to do some business and the reality of what i 'thought' was happening was not...go figure, perception is not always reality...

i am nervous and anxious about the next few weeks...i am just ready to be done- and from the looks of it, i think everyone is...i need a serious break...a break with no pressure...that will happen about july 15...i must hang on until then...by the grace of God i will endure...

let's intercede for one another...it can't hurt...

good times...

it is approximately 1700 and i am fixing to eat catfish- which apparently makes your 'nature' rise...

but- i wanted to take a little time to thank those who make my daily readings comical...it's a rare day when i don't go through the link list to read the daily musings of some incredible people...some are students, some are writers, some are just 'cool ass' people...pappan is in kali this week, and good news all around- he misses us, via mere, and as all should know, he is now an official inquirer...God be praised!! it is because of paps that i entered this realm of hilaridy and i would like to dedicate this next portion to him...

oh great person from the land of kali- i have always had high hopes for you, and i want to thank you for the quiet moments when the 'think sticks' are in hand and we try to solve the worlds problems...i am thankful that you don't possess the slightest notion to be like the world...some people don't get it, but i do...i trust that the cosmos will continue to provoke you and yet surround you in this earthly travel...you have made my life fun...and as par for the course, "i am stoked for you, and you do know that i love you, right?"

peace to all...and as a side note, i hope the revolutionary in the UK gets the dream tomorrow...i hope a lot of things for the dear people that surround me...more hopes later...