the "n" word...

no, not that "n" word...this "n" word is equally destructive...and it goes beyond mere language...after reading this article, i've come to a few alarming conclusions...

granted, i'll give it to you that this is a progressive opinion...but i have to say, even with the slant to the left, it's disturbing to think that our government's best reply to the "n" question gets this response- "all options are on the table"...

in my niebuhr class, reinhold defines love as this- (summed up by ismael): to embody love within history, you will fail...or- love, as lived by Christ, has no capacity to resist the enemy...so, and i quote ismael- "take the Christ route, and you will be crucified"...which is well documented by pacifists like MLK, etc...

so when i put this idea of love in conversation with this particular situation, what could possibly be a good outcome? it is possible that life will be lost whether we engage, or not engage...i wonder if the same theory of "strike before struck" could be juxtaposed with "love before loved?" i don't know- and i am well aware there are many tensions involved...maybe i give humanity too much credit...

i guess the greater question is what do we do? especially when the "kurios" is the head of our household?

p.s. i'm sad...

close call...

i don't know about anyone else, but sometimes i have nightmares about what is going on behind the smirk...

manamana...

this makes me really, really happy...

alright!!

i am now official...candidate baby...it was tough...but good...

in case you were wondering...

tuesday night went well...if you can remember friday afternoon, this is the big one...it seems frighteningly easy...this is the part that makes me wonder if there is a trap up somewhere ahead...anyway, any mention of me to the ground of all being would be appreciated...

whew...

laura walters: brilliant, energetic, loving, enduring, funny...a ball of goodness wrapped up in the best running partner i could ever imagine...thanks to this young lady, i crossed the line with tears in my eyes...it just so happens that they give us some "bling" in the form of a medal...she "medaled" me and it was something i will never forget...thanks laura- most of all for being the best of friends...

pictures? yeah, right...i'm not sure how i happened to NOT document this momentous feat, but it's typical...i will find one...oh yes...i will...

this week is somewhat daunting...i go before presbytery and my committee on friday for candidacy...i could use a little of the remembrance this week if you think about it...missing a lot of school- but getting to go home for a few days...love to all and may you have peace this week...

ummm...

this is it folks...t-minus 17 hours and counting down until i cross the start line...i would like to take this time and thank all who have encouraged and congratulated me along the way...i sense that this is close to what it should be like everyday...even without special events, we should be loving one another a bit more...in the ordinary...so love to all this beautiful weekend...pics to follow of the virgin half marathon...did someone knit booties? (hint mere)

why i go to school...

"Oh, and by the way, perhaps still, even today, there is a god who is whispering to us,

even nudging us, enticing love from us,

and who will never stop."

l. donelson

organs...

i don't know why i have never considered this...a friend of mine today shared that her father may have cardiac asthma...which to me says, his heart has breathing problems? it's like saying you might have ocular pneumonia...or intestinal palsy...or, like on s__ and the city, charlotte had vulvadinia...poor girl...her veejay was depressed...i know organs can get sick, but can your kidney get a migraine? or your thyroid develop allergies? these mysteries are compelling and leave me wondering about bones, and tissue...if maybe they can take on psychological phenomena...can you tell i don't want to study?

good advice...

everyone should have someone that they can shuffle off a question or complaint to and get good feedback in return...i have that someone...i was stuck in the middle of this fantastically long paper due yesterday...here is the advice i was given...

"I think "see dick run" could make a nice thesis. You might need to add something like; "Given the narrative structure of many Gospel accounts in which the disciples come across as retarded jackasses, I argue that Jesus taught in ways analagous to elementary teaching styles such as the ubiquitous "see dick run". ps...I only understand about 40% of what I just wrote."

it was just what i needed...so i finished j-term, have four complete days to myself, and have only three weeks till the half marathon...oh yeah, and school starts on monday...and there was much rejoicing...(yeaaaaaaah)....